开工啦！！！

见天一大清早就出门了，因为和KDC的朋友约好了要开始赶功课。
我们小组课业完全没有动过，当然怕死啦！
还有两个星期就要放假了。
别人放假就会显得特别开心，我却要担心怎样完成我的assignment。
很糟糕的感觉。 Z.z
还好的是有讨论到功课的安排，所以一有时间，我又要开始赶了啦！
以我的性格，一定会杞人忧天，所以三月都还没到，就开始担心六月的考试。
我只知道，这两个星期会很忙，我一定要很快地完成我的课业！
拜托，不要再常常赖在床上了！！！

讨论完了，时间都还没到12点，还是属于早上时段。
这两天我的学生~育庚，都在邀我出去，我们一年才见一次，就去咯。
反正也闲着。 *我又把功课放在一旁了~ >.< 我很好奇的是，这次跟来的还有俊权！ 育庚是我CM的学生，俊权是我YN的学生， 他们竟然在同一间中学，同班上课？！ haahaa 我们的目的是~~~看戏！！！ 每年我都会带育庚去电影院一次的，今年也是一样。 就是这部戏啦！！ 《72家租客》 蛮不错的电影，会很好笑，很值得看，
而且真的是“粒粒巨星”！！完全没有“咔哩啡”！！
每一幕都会看见不同的演员参与一角，没有重要不重要~
所以每一幕都有惊喜，会看见不同演员的角色演绎及爆笑造型！
很精彩！！

完了后，拍照留念！！



晚上要去DiZiGui的家，说有Open House哦~~
haiz，要开始赶功课了~~

*糟糕！那天我和Liew去看的戏票，我忘记从衣服袋子里拿出来！
结果~~又少了一张票根~~ geram!!!

潘多拉的盒子

在希腊的神话里面，天神Prometheus在天上盗取了火，让人类学会使用火。
大神Zues决定让儿子火神Hephaestus用泥土做出一个女人~Pandora，
爱神Aphrodite授予她美貌，Hermes送给她灵舌利嘴，
太阳神Apollo则给了她音乐的天赋，Zues则送她一个盒子。
Prometheus心知Zues不怀好意，可惜他的弟弟Epimetheus却接受了Zues的这份礼
Pandora不懂的盒子里装着是什么。
基于好奇，就把盒子打开了，里头装满了瘟疫、妒忌、贪婪、不信任和一切的罪恶都逃出来了！
这就是Zues对人类懂的使用只有神才能拥有的火的报复。

我是一个很喜欢希腊神话故事的人，
可是人类自私，岂能以一个故事而作交代呢？
人们总是喜欢往自己的利益方面着想，事情发生了，连背上责任的勇气都没有。
刚刚看见kek在facebook里分享的一个短片，由香港演员李司祺述说故事。
有很多时候我们不懂，但确实是我们的幸运都建立在别人的不幸上。
很多时候都存在着矛盾。
不说又让自己痛苦，说了对方又会冷眼对我。
保护别人也保护自己，到底怎样做才是对的？
保护对方是伟大吗？可有些看自己不顺眼的人不会觉得。
就是因为朋友而为他着想，而不向对方坦白，这又是什么定律？
人与人之间的关系，自从人类进化后从来没有被简化过。
把罪名都套在潘多拉身上，她何苦也不是犯下与人类同样会犯的错误？！

说对方让自己失望，是自私，把过错推回一干二净，但是说这种话的人，会是对方的什么人？
说自己是爱莫能助，是自私，没有尝试帮忙就放弃，但是对方过的风光，自己呆在对方的哪？

人类是制造借口的动物。你我也一样，没有分别谁说得少。

Pandora的好奇心让他懂了盒子里面的东西是什么，不能补救了~
那一刻，一位天神叫她关上盒子了。
其实盒子里还是有一样东西没有逃出来就被Pandora关上了。
你知道是什么吗？

痛心的连续剧~

刚刚看完这部戏，结果故事的结局还是预料中的事，
也许不同的，是每一种故事的发展手法不一样而已。
说什么三个好朋友的爱情，总会有一个受伤害，完全没有理由，
其实我是希望另两个在一起的，结果却是另外一个。
其实他们两人能在一起，也是因为一方当场默默地制造机会！
真的替他不值！！看了就生气！
不过，也许他是我喜欢的演员，他退出才会令我那样生气吧~
还是不评了，看了就懂。

今天我在和朋友在讨论上次我所想的话题。
没有想到，大家都会曾经有过这种矛盾。
面对着好友，却被对方的立场与执着而受折磨，真的辛苦。
今天又有另外两个话题，迟些再分享！！

现在要去补眠。

*今天本来讲好和一个朋友去时代广场逛街看戏的，结果我放飞机了
明天再去！！

充实的一天？！

刚刚洗了澡，我的时间就从早上七点就开始充实到现在，
能好好坐下来，想想今天的所有经过，开始写部落格。
因为我刚刚才回到家~~heehee

先说在学校，真的很累，一连假期了很久，结果又回来班上喊，
喉咙真的是没有力，喊到都好像在喊空气，学生当自己是透明的，
原来这种现象并不是说只有我一个人在面对，每一个老师都是一样，
都快要考试了，学生一点紧张都没有。
我则在那里拼命教书讲课，深怕他们不懂。
而且是国语，怕他们看见考题都不懂是要回答什么？！
在班上一直复习，讲解，就是要喊进他们的脑袋里去！haahaa~
还有我的道德教育节，他们都当我耳边风的，
我已经骂了很久，“再吵就打！”已经喊了很多次，
但是最终都是没有下手的，他们哪怕我？更别说会专心听课啦~
所以在班上讲道德的课题，都是严重警告他们，
上课要专心，才会有好的成绩，这是定律。（我也不懂为什么~）

放学后，原本说好和liew要去看戏的，结果到最后都没有决定，
所以放学后的时间，我们都先把自己的工作忙完， *写教案咯
写完后，我又和朋友谈得兴起，谈了很多话题，真的永远的讲不完。
先说别人的新年趣事，然后将到逼人的家翁家婆，又说到了结婚，
最后还说到很私隐的事情，简直是笑翻了！
还好时间过得不是很快，还有时间决定要不要看戏！
当然看啦！一直要求liew去看戏~~就是这部啦！

当我们决定要看这一场戏而去买票的时候，发现很少观众。
总值先买票，然后去吃pizza， *又再一次的迟进场
已经很多次了，总是因为吃午餐而耽误了入场时间，
不是我们没有时间观念，而是每一次都是出菜慢，真的很慢，
吃到来又要跑回去那个戏院，结果，有再次迟到。
这还不重要，因为已经开场了，戏院内都是暗的，根本很难找到自己的座位号码
当我想走回出去看座位板的时候，liew就直接带我随便找一个位子坐下来了~
反正戏院里有没有很多人，有的就是空位子！haahaa 真的是第一次
这部戏，看得很入神，因为有几场戏都看得我目瞪口呆~
看得很入神，演员演得很好很淡定，但是看到一幕“应该很痛心，却又把对白说得很淡定”
这一幕，我和liew简直是笑到前仰后翻！
只是觉得戏份都带的轻描淡写，不够完整。
随便啦，我是觉得能和朋友看戏，就是一种幸福~~哈ahaa

回家的路程中，接到阿董的电话，
原来有一班老师朋友已经在老师家进行聚会了，超级夸张~
结果没有回家就直接让阿董把我带去了那里，
好开心，看着老师们陆陆续续地来到一个地方，
虽然讲的话题都是围绕在校园，大多都是很气氛也很失望的话题，
能够一起说出来没有烦恼了，也无所谓阿！反正人啊，就是要开心
今天我学会了开红酒，到红酒，haahaa，是他们教我的啦，
全部都是女老师啦，所以我一个最小的男生，就由我来学习lol~
不过也挺好玩的，老师们也太会喝了吧，超出了我的想象！
谈天，原本说9.30就结束，有些老师要回家了，
结果谈到11.00过后才陆续收拾，然后回家~~
haahaa
之前的几晚都失眠了，都是因为太早睡也没事干咯~还有很热的天气
结果今天很开心得到了快要深夜~haahaa

现在已经是深夜1点钟了，我还没有想睡，
喝了总共3口的红酒，为了这3口红酒，我花上了一个小时~
幸好没有醉，更没有追酒~haahaa，不然就糗了~
明天早上还有约会，能不能醒来又是另一回事了~~haahaa
放心，我有闹钟~

反省

有时候长大了，话也会跟着少了，也会变得懒惰了。
不懂为什么，别人不了解自己，或是对自己有了误解，自己还是很懒惰作解释。
“解释就是掩饰”。
也许是受到这句话的影响吧，我始终好事保持沉默。不说，还好。
言语可以是鼓励人的清凉，但也可以成为伤人的武器。

今天在下课后，走着回办公室。开始思考。
其实每个人都有自己的思想和立场。自己认为是对的，未必对方也是。
就算双方都费尽口舌，更多的摩擦会撞出更多的火花。
双方都是捍卫着自己的立场，为自己而说话，都觉得自己尚未尽错，
就这样，服输的心态，完全被抹杀。
就是因为双方都从自己的观点出发。
这样下去，后果是什么，都是大家清楚不过的。
每个人想的东西都不一样，目的不一样，方式不一样，观点不一样。
最少就算只有两个人，碰撞而产出的火花也不会逊色。
其实到最后，当局者根本都不知道自己错在哪里。

所以人都是自私的，不同的只是因为大家自私的程度不一样而已。
很少人会觉得自己是错的，就算是知道做错了，认错的又有多少呢？
捍卫自己的立场和观点，自私。
知道做错了，羞于认错，自私。
继而为了尊严而不了了之，更加的自私。

今天放学后，巧遇FenPing老师，很年轻的老师，却经验老道。
和她谈天，释怀了很多，并不是闲聊，而是另一种学习。
我也承认，其实我是表面开朗，内心和思想都偏向灰暗面。
把自己放得很低很低，就是一种没有自信的做法。
就算自己有再好的能力去处理事情，也未必能做得很好。
我对自己的要求很高，可惜表面上看来，我实在是懒惰。haahaa
“不求别人对我评价很好，但求我不给人带来麻烦”
所以自己犯下的过错，自己都很在意，甚至被自己打败。
表面上看来我还想不会介意别人对我的评语，但是自己就是不允许自己的重犯。
最近跟自己的对话多了很多，自己想了很多东西，
却又无从写起，真的矛盾。

过后有位朋友和我谈天，说到我什么时候开始瘦下来，
我想了，是来到这里教书以后。haaahaa，
左想想右想想，原来以前的我拥有4人帮，
我们4人的踪影无处不在，而且无处不吃！
下课时一起去食堂吃饭谈天看报纸，谈谈放学后要去哪里吃，
放学后就4人挤在一辆车子，近的就去Mc Donald，远的就去Mid Valley。
曾经在很多地方留下足迹，吃遍了想吃的东西。
可惜最近大家都很忙，出来见面的机会少之又少。
看看对方的部落，尝试去聆听对方的最近。
我不希望我们4人帮会被说中...
“大家都在向前走，只有你自己在原地踏步”
haiz，开朗一点吧！！一切都很好！

还有很多功课做啦，忙功课吧！！

KL right now~

watlau eh, so long time i never update my blog..
heehee, CNY mah, everyone busy for own stuff, and me too lol.
busy for eat, sleep, fun, and GAMBLING~~
haahaa..
finally, i m lost what i win before loo...deng, bad luck.. =.=

erm, my CNY, going to my friends home, not much of ang paw i get,
*cause i am stay at home most of the time..
im gambling with my friends in my old home, mahjong and black jack again..
then i went to my dear's home, gathered with friends,
and i got going to Taiping, for my KDC friends, having fun alot...
and we went to Taiping Lake for seeing "something" at night...
haahaa, and so many joke of us, we keep laughing for it...
so happy and unforgetable memories~~

after that, i am take a long long rest to restore my energy~
so tired to drive so long, and so many assignment i din't touch, T-T
before i going back to KL, i keep rushing for my assignment...
yishh, so bad luck of me recently..
wednesday i had to post a assignment, but now i still not get the stuff yet..
and 3 more assignment waiting for me, and i just doing 1 of them...
a group assignment from that, i never touch it and never discuss with my partner yet..
lol..what's wrong with me?
im so lazy...

im lazy to blog, i am lazy to upload my photo,
im lazy to going out, i am lazy to sms, msn, email and so on..
im lazy to work, i am lazy to doing my homework,
im lazy, TOTALLY LAZY..
how could be like that!!!

oh ya, im in KL right now, start to work tomorrow..
i just remember that, my TEACHING PLANNER haven't done yet!!
opps!! i have to rush and write it for 5 days before which is im absent!!
haiz..

bored~~CNY

CNY start today lol~
tomorrow will be the 1st day of brand new year..
i am stay at home all my time, after i get back from the B-I-G course..
i am thinking, and no idea to enjoy my CNY lol...
it just feel like very bored and it's nothing special...
i sit front of the computer, since i bring it here from old house yesterday,
nobody can i talking with in the net,
and i am lazy to update my recent activity...
*im going to cinema with my students on 03/02
*my B-I-G photo with my friends
so bored of my day... and some more, my assignment waiting for me again,,,
haiz..
no CNY feeling at all, right now~
i need some help... HELP~
facebook so sienz, msn so sienz, blogging also sienz~

i keep listening the song~ SIGN, by Brown Eyed Girls..nice song?!
and read again my comics...haahaa, that's all i can do now..

after B-I-G~

lol~~so long time i din't update my post~~
ok, actually i am going to a BIG program which is all of KDC student must to attend for 4 days..
ermm, this was a very funny thing, so many sweet memories we all made..
ergh, im lazy to post some photo here, just wrote loo~~

8th~
we are build our camp in our campus, (really noob right?)
just me and liek chuan 2 chinese males, we are so hard to join in the Malay group...
the 1st day, we are so pain and so uncomfortable to stay there,
and we count to go back home...

9th~
oh man, the program today was gong to lake!!
don't think that we are having fun over there...
1st, we have playing the canoe.. im pro loo, cause i learn that when im in NS~
so im group with liekchuan, we play play play,
but after that the nightmare start...
we had to learn how to swim, so we had wear the life-shirt and going into the DIRTY lake~
haahaa...

10th~
whoa, today we are going to a moutain, Bulit Wang..
haahaa, really a Rich Hill right? zzz
we keep walking 45mins to reach that start point,
after gathering, start walking and climb the hill to reach another place for next activity..
so danger while walking, but fun too~
it's took 2 hours more, non-stop walking...
that, start our group activity, cooking and having lunch~
we all leave at 3pm more, the bus took us back..
but we are not going back to campus by bus...
the bus sent us to half, and all of us had to walk back...1 hour more again...
all of us so tired for wlking, like hell~~
so pain of our leg~~ T-T

11th~
going back after we settle all the thing,
briefing~talking and ready to going back~
woowooo..i love my KDC friends, i am enjoy the moment when we are together..
hahaaa

*so tired to wrote zor...

a sad thing was happened on me before i going to this camp,
that time im still n KL and my computer (laptop) was spoilt,
it cant running to the windows, something was missing~
so shit of me...
yiuh...

最近

最近，在看着一本书，《圣经故事》，从学校图书馆借来的，
很奇怪自己会借阅这类型的书，细读之下，还真的有很多的不明白。

最近，常常犯下一些小错误，很讨厌这样的自己，
为什么之前老神在在的我，却害怕起教书的日子？

最近，常常离开自己的桌位，逃到安静的地方去，
看看报纸，写写教案，谈谈话题，不想呆在让自己感到窒息的地方。

最近，爱上韩国的Brown Eyed Girls这团体，
上网看她们的舞蹈编排，听她们的歌曲，看她们的表演。

最近，哪里都不想去，只想回到家，打开电脑，写部落格，看面子书。
其实还是一样的空虚无聊，上网并没有什么好玩的。

最近，没有什么心情，没有怎么想笑，╮(╯_╰)╭
常常想，这种心情会随着我到什么时候，还是，我必须自己去找回属于我的心情。

最近，很爱睡。睡到不想起床，想继续赖在床上。
可是当我梳洗的时候，却惊觉，倒不如早醒更好，反正都是要醒。

最近，就是最近，通常都孤独的最近。

shitty day~

lol, today was a most worst day for me, it's really sux..

1st, was happened in the morning, and this will be a long story.
i going my class, 3N on tuesday, and i told them have to pay more attention in class,
cause i will absent school for BIG(KDC lol) next week,
actually they were high co-operation with me before going recess,
but after recess time, they were back and line up outside the class,
they still talking and making noise when they saw me walked to them,
i go to the front, put my books on a table strongly,
and i ask them, "are u all forget what i talking just now?"
i saw some girls was too hot because of the sunlight,
i let them in, after i warn them, i don't wan get any noise from them, even the chairs.
when they go in, that's great for silence.. but after that..the same thing happen, again.
i just sat on my place and let them shut up by self,
but no 1 get me, and they keep talking non-stop.
i am thinking, what kind of punishment should i took..
and lastly, i wrote on the board~
Open your books, start from the last page, copy this,
I will be a good student, i won't waste my study time for chatting, and i won't make this mistake again.
3N, you were waste my 12 minutes, and you had to copy this for 12 pages.
and i want to see your book on my table, on this friday.
they start to do and i told them, if they doing good, i will make it less.
and what happened this morning, a girl's parent came to me,
and what else she done? she keep saying that her daughter was busying for finish the homework, and the people who always talking in class, that's not her but is other, so that's a little unfair to her, impossible she will making noise in class.
ok fine, she keep make me trouble..so i so disappointed and i said i will make it less today.
then she walked to form teacher..
finally, i saw a boy from that class, he was a good boy,
he saw me and said, all 3N must finish 12 pages, and pass up on next friday, and no complaining.
whoa?! i am so kesian for them, because of a parent complain, they all have to do,
but i am thankful to form teacher, cause she was helping me, she's not blame me at all even i have done worst.
actually, i am really no mood when i seeing that parent, i went down to field and i meet my students, i get fun with them and i am so appreciate i know them.. thanks 5N'2010.

ok, the 2nd thing happened to me before recess, if liew didn't told me, i really don't know that i get replacement in a class. but that's not a big deal~~

3rd thing happened after recess, my class, standard 1, i was making mistake,
yesterday i ask them to line up in front of the music room after recess,
so that we can get more time for music and singing all together~
but i forget that, they are just a 7 years-old child and they cant shut up?!
they started playing over there and i think it's maybe interrupting other class..
aiyah, no next time lol~~

4th happen, neh, YYM lol, a most noisy people in the staffroom.
she had to fill a form which is HRMIS, it's about Human Resource,
all the teacher have to fill it clear, many info have to fill in,
she gonna doing that stuff but i din't get the form, i think the clerk still think that i am a GSTT,
so YYM suddenly ask me that am i fill that form, and i said not.
she's angry and ask loudly, "why you are not but i have to do?"
so she go down and ask the clerk, finally i get that form,
please, that form got 38 pages, all teacher fill it within a week!
how about me, i just get it and i have to pass it up before i leave school today?!
she was so sux 1~~
when i said, i get the form, she was laugh at me, just like funny,
so shitty her~~
nevermind.
i finish it today also, what i scare for? F*** Bi***.
tell you 1 la, she want to cut her hair like BOB hair,
but so bad-luck, her hair was re-bonding before,
so it was failed!!! haahaa~~
ergh, no wonder she was so angry and bad mood la~~

not yet finish~ 5th,
i get the letter for Ba-B KDC nia~~
it's about attend a B-I-G on next week, 8~11 of February, in Jitra, a sux place.
and that clerk is really bull shit, sure they got a photostat machine,
but after she get that letter she ask me to photostat by self and 1 for her, 1 for PK
ok la, i get it i get it, i done it on the spot too!!
lazy women and always complain other,
her own false also push to teachers..
1 more Ba-B~~

Perak+Chenmoh+Legion

ergh, just finish a movie with liew just now,
as what i do always, upload the movie poster here,
ya, Legion...

ermm, the story is talking about the Lord's last hope, i guess..
the Lord sent an angel, Gabriel, for killing (?!) people,
it's because of the Lord lost faith on his son, human..
but Michael, an angel too, he cut his wings on his back,
and he stole much of gun and so on, start to fight for human,
and the last hope, is a pregnant women, her baby..
the Lord don't want this baby born, this is what Gabriel said.
and i am so confuse on this movie... their script and words.
they said the LORD don't want the baby birth,
but Michael fight for it and when it is success,
Michael said that's not the end and more fighting come after it.
so BALIA if you watching it..

im confuse and i was fall asleep for a while..
erm, some scene are so bloody and i so scare about it..
haahaa, so bad luck of liew...i keep catch his arm kuat kuat~~haahaa
after the movie finish, sure i asked liew about the meaning and the point of this movie...
ergh,it's not really clear for us so we also not really understand what's the main point of this story. never mind..
liew said, this movie not really follow the Holy Bible or the history of Christian, just maybe some, but actually it is bring other people a wrong message about the reason why the Lord lost the faith on human and why Lord order to destroy the human, and Michael was fight for human, Gabriel kill him by the order..but at last, Michael appear(?!) with his wings...aiya, really confuse de la..and all the angel was black wings,and killing people,destroy the last hope..
forget about it, it just a movie that i can not understand..waste my money
(some more the ticket is RM10 leh..sux)

ergh, i went back to my hometown with my brother for our new home on last friday until we come back KL again on sunday.
the new house was so nice and you can view it in my facebook's album,
welcome you to my new house anytime, if i was there lah~
it's so nice and so enjoy when i was there,
busy to serve all the guest, and playing with my cousin and nephew,
many funny stuff happened on us,
but i am so lazy too write it down, haahaa..

and 1 more important thing is,
i was went to Chenmoh on yesterday, with YC,
so much of friends i had meet, and i miss all of my students.
i love them all, and i also post the photo of us in my facebook's album already.
haahaa..